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    Al THLDI
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    I'm Scared

    Post by Al THLDI on Thu Nov 17, 2011 5:45 pm

    I'm scared of losing you..
    I'm scared of not being able to talk to you ever again
    I'm scared of not seeing you ever...
    I know that day will come anyway, but not today.
    And hell I hope not tomorrow or in another five decades
    Even after all we've been through
    Good, bad, and ugly...
    You are still someone in so many ways I look up to.
    Also many ways I wish I'll never become.
    It's very conflicting, all my emotions towards you.
    I see you for who you are.
    I know deep down you see me...
    But what blinds you?
    I realized now I don't need you as much as I thought I did.
    You were wrong.
    I do have friends.
    I have people I can count on.
    I can manage to stand on my own.
    Oh there is so much I can do, and you never realized it.
    Or maybe you did, and you were scared to lose me?
    I try my best to understand many things.
    When I got the news...
    I could have sworn for a split second
    My world almost crumbled down.
    Maybe it was silly
    Maybe I over reacted
    But I was scared.
    All I thought was, not now...
    not yet.
    All I know that is a fact.
    I want to tell you I love you.
    I want you to know I do, believe it so and not turn you face away.
    Some say it's time and distance we need.
    I hope they are right.
    Some days I really couldn't care,
    Then there are other days I actually feel pain.
    I miss you.
    Your smile
    your laughter
    your funny faces..
    I did get to see some of that the other day.
    You were adorable with your soup.
    It been a while that I laughed while drinking a liquid
    and you giving me that bizarre look of wth..
    and then all the memories of the times we laughed when I had my unfortunate laughing moments.
    For a moment I knew you thought of them too
    Even if it lasted a second.
    I know you miss me, even if you don't say it.
    Even if you lash at me with small yet hurtfull unecessary comments.
    Or your scoldings or your looks.
    I know you love me.
    Some day...
    But the other day it's when I realized
    I am scared
    Scared that the someday could never come
    Maybe this was just a heads up for me
    to try harder for both of us?
    I don't know.
    I just thank god that I still have time.
    But how long?
    One day one can be
    the next you can not.



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    Re: I'm Scared

    Post by Jade Hawk on Thu Nov 17, 2011 6:36 pm

    It's got a good rhythm to it! (CV is mine) It's a bit... depressing though. It's like you have something (or someone) great in your life and all this poem is concentrating on it the negative thought of losing it. Bit of a mood killer, but the poem itself is quite good.




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    Re: I'm Scared

    Post by Al THLDI on Thu Nov 17, 2011 6:39 pm

    Well it was for my mother, and we aren't talking.



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