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    Mercy
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    The Monster Under My Bed

    Post by Mercy on Tue Mar 15, 2011 7:27 pm

    I used to always be afraid of the monsters.
    So my older brother would hand me
    An aerosol can,
    And told me it was Magic Spray.

    He told me
    It would smell so good,
    That the monsters would
    Disappear.

    Little did he know,
    That I couldn’t use that can of spray
    On real life monsters.

    I used to think
    I was the monster,
    Fighting against myself to do the right thing.

    What you told me was the right thing.

    I used to believe you knew it all,
    You held the key,
    The answer...

    And I was so insecure,
    It was the truth in my eyes.

    But now,

    When I look at you,
    I see anger.

    A fire burning so bright
    And so deep
    It burns at your soul.
    Eating you alive.

    You screaming at me,
    To stand up,
    To be a man.

    To fight
    With pride.

    Defend yourself.

    So here I go.

    I am breaking the chains,
    A lion breaking from its cage,
    A storm leaving the stormy seas.

    I have brewed up,
    Pages upon pages,
    Ink spilling out onto the paper
    Of things to call you.

    But I will spare you the details.

    I am breaking away
    From them.
    From her.

    And most importantly
    From you.

    I don’t need your permission
    To be happy.

    Or to tell myself I am
    A wonderful,
    Caring person.

    Since when did I need your word
    To do something I want to do?

    I don’t need your advice,
    In the form of a beer bottle.

    I don’t need your
    Whiney ass
    To say I’m a good chair
    When you need me.

    You can’t tell me
    Who to be
    What to say
    How to think.

    I don’t want you controlling me.

    Pulling my strings
    At uncomfortable lengths,
    Angles...

    Whispering hatred
    Into my fragile ears.

    “Stand up for yourself!
    For god’s sake!”

    You would scream at me,
    As I cried.
    The harsh, cutting,
    Guttural voice of yours.

    Gashing,
    Bashing,
    Destroying me down to bite size pieces...

    Oh you little piece of sh—
    Shut up!
    It’s my turn to speak now.

    I can’t take it!

    Fuck off,
    Leave me alone.

    Even after I cut the strings,

    What do you attempt?
    To glue them right back together.

    Not this time.

    Ha,
    Not. This. Time.

    You control freak.

    You hurt me
    And I bled for you
    Like a soldier on the front line,
    I waited with my gun

    Heavy anticipation with every breath I took
    I waited.

    And I’m done waiting,
    Because I realize you left me.

    So you can hide behind closed eyes,
    A veil of smoke,
    A smoky laugh from drunkenness.

    But I’ve seen your hideous face.

    You are the monster
    Underneath my bed,

    But my spray just won’t
    Seem to work.
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    Re: The Monster Under My Bed

    Post by redabashedenigma on Wed Mar 16, 2011 11:48 pm

    wow....amazing, truly...
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    Re: The Monster Under My Bed

    Post by Mercy on Wed Mar 16, 2011 11:51 pm

    thank you reeedddd <3 you're always so nice to me Smile
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    Re: The Monster Under My Bed

    Post by redabashedenigma on Thu Mar 17, 2011 12:38 am

    you're always truly amazing :]

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